DIAMONDZ

insomniac

2011-05-01T02:44:00.002+08:00

cldnt sleep...

thinking...

Nowadays i cannot sleep, cld be the flu or cld be the many other preoccupied thoughts.

Recurring constantly.

Not a bad news, bcos...

i know what i want now.

walking on steps

2011-04-25T22:32:00.004+08:00

Drafting out a plan somehow worked.

I am so glad tt things are back on track again, at least for now.

Dark petrifying moments have gone under the bed or maybe into the storeroom.

For now.....

Daytime will be dedicated to work since schooling chances arent shining bright. :(

But well, i tried! (&i nv gave up)

If it's not meant to be, maybe somehow somewhr something better cld be waiting for me.?

Eyes are wide open now for any ka-ching moments!

Need to earn more to get closer to the goal.

Night time part 1 dedicates to major trash dumping in my room.

3yrs life of being a design student accumulated a massive amt of whatnots.

throw throw throw.

yes for now, throw throw throw. I will make my room clean, to stop noises coming from mummy and also to get a better fengshui. Hiek.

Meanwhile, i am also thinking of changing a domain :/

I need a place where i can have the choice to, selectively, lock things up.

but then again... i chg my mind like how the weather changes itself. unpredictable.

future painter kids

2011-04-23T22:52:00.002+08:00

It's interesting to see... The differences between a girl and a boy.

brrscary

2011-04-23T01:33:00.003+08:00

Sometimes the thought of not having enough time petrifies me...

not enough time for your love ones

not enough time to live life

not enough time to chase dreams

not enough time to mend things

not enough time to train some guts

not enough time to make it in time

as much as there are so much of 'not enough', i believe tt thr are still alot of 'too much' tt i fail to see.

all these while i've been thinking.

and all these while i've been asking,

how negative have i become?

something from the bottom

2011-04-22T02:21:00.005+08:00

Who wld have guessed that life after graduation cld be so daunting?

Back from milan, had an eye-feast but still feeling lost as ever....

I need to start planning for plan B, or maybe C D E & F........................

for real.

rant of the month

2011-03-20T00:52:00.002+08:00

I've a thing for laundry shots, they're interesting, the type of fabric and colours chosen can somehow differentiate diff personalities. Been trying out new films recently, gg for the darker under-exposed feel heh. Time to stock up new films for the upcoming trip, no more to waste on experimental shoots. Am too broke recently to sustain my analogue hobby. FYP did a great job in burning tt hole in my pocket. Yeap no fundings at all, thanks to the inflexible system of standard administration.

As if not busy enough, i've been meticulously planning a whole list of new things to do. Very excited!! It will be even more exciting if i've more ka-ching with me -.-. But well, tt 1k++ damage did make me realise alot of things.. tt now im more careful with hw i spend my money. It's still abit unbelievable tho.. tt i actually part with tt amt of cash in just a blink. Esp even before the trip!! Thinking back, a cam and a film scanner took me mthssssss to consider even to buy anot. To add on to my misery, mum seems to be rly glad of my emo-ing phase.. evil!

Need to find freelance, to cover mai damagey~~~ money money 来来～～～

静静就好

2011-03-19T00:44:00.002+08:00

说多错多静静就好

My flu is nt letting me off

2011-03-14T22:31:00.003+08:00

I guess i've finally reached my physical limits. So much work on hand but im feeling super sick right now. Staying in an air-con room makes me even more sick. As much as i wanna get things done fast, i cant concentrate with this half conscious mind of mine. I need a break.. I need an escape.......... till i get better.

xx: "你这样 pia 做什么?"

对咯。。做什么？？？？？

the aftermath of the photoshoot

2011-03-14T00:15:00.001+08:00

Seeking for new excitement

2011-03-06T16:31:00.004+08:00

Sometimes i just get the feeling that i need to get out of sgp. It's a very strong feeling since long time ago, that i cannot explicate with mere words.

But then... easier said than done.

:(

2011-02-19T23:10:00.000+08:00

明白了这世界上有太多的不可以

没日没夜

2011-02-12T16:56:00.002+08:00

I opened the fridge and reach out for the milk, only to see the expiry date knowing that once it expires will be the day for submission. Every lil thing ard seems to be reminding me of the date... brrrr~

Drained.

2011-02-01T13:38:00.002+08:00

Wished i cld be more sure of myself, this uncertainty is killing me..............

I always think............

2011-01-29T14:50:00.006+08:00

Good interaction requires certain level of mutual frequency. (you may disagree with me)

The routine of explaining, convincing and seeking assurance can be sucha revolting chore.

People around are varied in different influx of frequency.

If there are some on the same level as you do, you're blessed!

If there are some tt arent, do yourself a favour, strike them out of your life.

Strike them out mentally, keep them around physically...

Life is too short to allow this mental toil constantly recycling by itself...

options

2011-01-23T23:47:00.003+08:00

I am not sure now if 'comfort zone' is what im willing to settle for, not quite sure if i still have a choice. wished every second cld split into half, so i can continue to stall time.

thats how i am feeling right now

2011-01-21T13:52:00.000+08:00

credits: tumblr

Just when is my oven coming in....?

2011-01-11T22:12:00.002+08:00

"After you grad! If not everyday you only think of bake bake bake." said mummy.

...... isnt that suppose to be my bday prezzie? Drag 3 mths alr lo~~ Who benefits the most if i bake? Also you guys lo..... meh.

Oven 来来～～～

-

2011-01-09T23:16:00.002+08:00

The laundries make perfect decorations for the exterior of flat isnt it? Lil teeny pants and tees hanging heehee.

heheheheee

2011-01-08T01:09:00.001+08:00

瞄瞄～～～

2011-01-04T11:23:00.000+08:00

Enoki days~~~

2011-01-02T19:12:00.003+08:00

Temporary obsession with enoki mushroom made me came up with more than 10 different ways of cooking it. Jap curry enoki to mark the end of the experimental journey,

Reason being: firstly, ran out of ingredients, lastly....... you guess it! am pretty sick of enoki alr~ brrrrrr....

a post with no particular meaning

2010-12-26T23:49:00.008+08:00

I cleared my desktop, only leaving folders like fyp + defac, basically things im working on right now.

I wonder if anyone remembered? The pink (heels tessellations) wallpaper on my old mac. As if the tessellation are not alr messy and confusing enough, i've all my folders + files spread across the whole screen. I bet you guys have always wondered how despite the mess, i always know whr to locate my files. Thinking back, im amazed too. i enjoyed doing tt then, cos im always annoyed by people looking thru my files right behind my back. The messy desktop was an instant solution! Now.. i cant do that anymore, messy desktop frustrates me haha.

Change?

People change at every stages of their lives, bit by bit we hardly realize. Maybe the moment you got up of bed, you changed a lil, the next morning a lil more. That when you come to realize, it's alr a whole lot of differences. To some you call it growth and maturity. But do some ppl mature with time or do they actually go the opposite? All these while i've been sprouting nonsense, there are some words i wished i cld take back.

But then i need to recognize the fact that the world is a much bigger place and i'll never be able to break free if i allow myself to be constraint. Trapped in history. Like nested hierarchy, you think you've escape 1 box only to realized you're being trapped in another. Need to see more and to experience more, to constantly remind self that im stuck in tt same old box. Will nv be able to be more if i kept ignoring tt fact. Ignorance for comfort but tt comfort will short-lived, we'll all soon return back to tt same emptiness as before. No, get out get out. The moment we dont get out, our thoughts will only run solely within tt box and around tt box. Yes it's tt narrow. Now get out.

1 more thing.. pls start spelling my name correctly before it gets on my nerves. 1 time okay, 2 times okay, third time also okay! But with tt increasing rate... its getting abit out of hand eh? Applies to anyone and everyone, no excuses anymore!! ;)

FFT

2010-12-25T23:00:00.002+08:00

"It has always seemed strange to me.. the things we admire in men, kindness and generosity, openness, honesty, understanding and feeling, are the concomitants of failure in our system. And those traits we detest, sharpness, greed, acquisitiveness, meanness, egotism and self-interest, are the traits of success. and while men admire the quality of the first they love the produce of the second."

- John Steinbeck

I rly sld use this spare time to slp instead

2010-12-18T22:53:00.004+08:00

The few weeks passed by in a zoommmm. Too fast now tt i sit down trying to pen these thoughts down, i feel wow. As usual, im 4ever going thru the same process of getting lost and finding back myself.. getting lost and the cycle continues... If that 1 day i ever settle down wld prolly be the day i stop breathing. Like wht masayo said, there are a type of ppl that needs to be constantly worried (detect a problem) in order to find balance and peace in life. Sad to say but I think i am that kind of person.

That few weeks have been busy busy. &i bet it's gonna get busier all the way till 2011. Am truly glad and grateful for all the opportunities and lessons learnt thruout the year. (felt that i've just been thru a crash course on lesson abt life, sounded cheesy but srsly!!) Happy things sad things. I've to say this time round i experienced everything at it;s extreme.

an overfilled brain

2010-11-30T21:50:00.003+08:00

HAIII HAII long time no blogz. Been immersing myself into the whole 'containing' ideation, tt it's becoming part of my life alr. Literally everything i see i subconsciously relate them to containing containment FYP and blah anything along tt line. Im reaching the stage whr i cant think properly anymore. brrrr It's really time to de-clog!! need to de-clog in order to get clogged up with fresh new ideas agn!

I like the color combi of the ice-cream. I like earth tones. &i esp love sai color. :D

If one day our sai becomes cream color, it wld be really cute hor? Then our toilet paper will be in black color. Wooooo~

Need to get new sandals soon. umm my memory is failing me..

突然好想。。。

2010-11-21T19:31:00.002+08:00

馬上打包行李出國去

去些我不了解的地方

迷路

在迷路

帶著相機筆記簿黑色画筆記錄人生

cut off any means of digital communications

pick up advanced sewing

學些不同的語言

做些瘋狂的事

媽媽的回應是：你 siao 啊？！

最進我，還真的是有一點 siao。。。

真的好想。。

The waiting cat

2010-11-19T23:02:00.003+08:00

Wah nowadays my focusing is getting more and more buay zhun. Lazy me relied too much on aperture priority, all turn out bo feel uh... like pek cekz only.

Came home today and slept like a dead log. Today shall be a resting day! Shall not do anything related to school till tmr! Time to read some books, me needs constant enlightenment to get inspiredz.

还是不要写比较好哈～～

I can be positive one lo, stop saying i am negative!!

不够

2010-11-18T22:53:00.005+08:00

Sometimes i keep thinking that it's not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough, not enough.

those grey fumes...

2010-11-14T23:25:00.008+08:00

Just in case you might wonder, tts not my ciggy. Recently ve been rly interested in taking smoking shots. I find the smoke coming out from a lighted cig/ from a mouth, visually beautiful. but not loving the smell tho :p (but then agn no offense okay! i love all my smoker friends!)

2:47 wooo super hot.

Currently looking for a good fengshui to do work. My ikea desk is full of things, useful things tt i've no idea where to keep. i secretly wished they were junks, so i cld have just shove them all into the bin with a swipe. And it's stacking up, day aft day. New stationaries, new books, lil props, knick knacks, some money and all the what nots. sibei sianxz.

Ytd night i was stoning alone and suddenly an idea struck me. I think i've some plans alr, i think.(but im nt telling you) Excited, i finally see some light.................. YES-UHHHHH....

watery no more

2010-11-14T16:38:00.002+08:00

Dont follow recipe, follow your heart. Recipe only serves as a guideline. ;)

i write my own script

2010-11-13T10:33:00.002+08:00

Have been attending this module tt wants us to keep finding our identity for our virtual studio. I kept wondering what's lacking?! But come to think of it how do i find identity for our studio when im unsure of even my own zzz.

Still trying to expose myself to the maximum, hopefully on the way i'll be able to find myself (back). Have been talking to alot of ppl, but sadly none seems to be able to enlighten me so far. i wld probably be grateful for lifezx if i ever met tt person.

Life's been pretty much a mess hehe. Some weeks ago, ICA misplaced my app form, refer me to this that him her that this and then back to her agn. i got so frustrated! they cld have just told me they lost my freaking form straight from the start. In the process they can still doubt/ question whether i did drop my form not, mannn i am speechless... Now i've to re-apply all over and mum's getting pissed at the rate im dragging this. Same for my bank admin, drag and drag and drag. justttttt draggggggg onlyyyyyyyy..........

Same for my films, i think i left it in the lab for more than 3 weeks alr! Mainly cos the idea of traveling alllllll the way thr turns me off quite abit. Got accessible labs in west not?! Or maybe it's time i get a film scanner, im seriously considering abt it the previous time. But i dont want to end up it being an impulsive buy, cos i might just end up STILL sending it to the lab due to laziness. Scanning mf is quite a chore, i wld rather pay someone to do it for me teehee.. Dk lah! shall see shall see...

Meanwhile i better clear up 30% of those checklist FIRST before my life rly gets turned upsize down in my own hands.

Embracing bad skin..........

2010-11-01T04:00:00.001+08:00

Very . awake . at . 4am . in . the . morn

My mind chooses it's timing to work, and it's always at it's peak @ 5am in the morn. Came early today~ gahhh i wished i didnt have to go sch later just for a meeting... zzz

Life will be a mess if you dont take gd care of it.

2010-10-31T19:22:00.006+08:00

It's okay to get lost sometimes but most imptly is to be able to find your way back. yeahhh yeahh im getting excited now!

Ytd the bro's gf cooked chinese-style mushroom soup for us. It's a big pot, so leftovers are expected. The pot is still thr, i knew i sldnt but curiosity made me open the lid. well i can only say... this cld just be the best way to torture a cheating husband. gosh thrs even this weird chemical reaction gg on inside bubbles bubbles, i swear if im not strong enough i'll faint on the spot! wahaha. i wonder how mum's gonna clear tt shit later...kuakuakua~~~ the deadly mush.

No photo posts leh, cos i've been to caught up with everything recently to visit the lab. :p

the art of conversing..

2010-10-30T13:53:00.004+08:00

I've always loved chatting with random people, cos they always provide me with new insights and perspective towards life through the conversation. People always think i like to probe/ ask dumb & depth-less questions, but i dont think they are. The way each individual answers and deal with the proposed question, subconsciously reflects what kind of a person they're. It works all the time.

Had a long chat with the bro's gf, super unexpected but im glad we did! I found out trivial lil secrets abt my bro. It's odd tt how i only know abt all these through a third party. But it was a pleasant surprise, it made me wanna relook into this whole relationship. i am very fortunate actually i sldnt be complaining and comparing myself all the time. Not like i have a bad relationship with my bro haha, just tt im alway grumpy abt how he always get what he wants, but.... now i know (: If im gg to share a story here, it's gna be real long, so i shall save it.

It's always hard to START a conversation (BUT it wldnt be prob if you're thick-skinned enough :p) and eventually to HOLDing it well, tt is why i've always admire people who're super engaging. It just felt like they've seen alot, been through alot to have so much experience to share. I want to see the world too. I rly want to...

迷失啊～！

2010-10-19T18:52:00.008+08:00

How would you understand me when i dont even understand myself?

I know my recent posts appeared to be a lil too depressing but wahaa nth of tt, just a lil lost in life... Just like how i wont say all tt im writing here to you in real life, cos it's odd! and.... not ME. -.- But I guess 10 years down the road, it's gonna be a nice feeling reading back all these. How much i've grown mmmm...

what will you do, when your life reaches a cross junction? so much possibilities...

To balance the (sad) things out a bit.. The sole (tt small lil piece behind, or is it called heels??) of one side of my sandals came off today! i dont even know whr i dropped it. lol i almost slipped whrever i go and i walk like a duck. it's funny, like im skidding everywhr, you guys sld try.. :D

A blog has it's power to reveal the owner's self (subconscious even!). &im starting to think tt it's not a wise idea to continue revealing whats constantly on my mind... &when i talk about this, i dont refer to friends i gave my url to/ i knew abt their existence. Somethings are not gg to not exist just bcos you THINK they dont. hmmmmmm.... familiar strangers.

I am not a very colourful person

2010-10-17T15:54:00.009+08:00

When i like something, ill stick with it for very long. Till im sick of it, till it fails me.

But then im contradicting.

I want changes all the time. i dont like to stick to a routine.

IF i was told to walk this certain path to a certain destination everyday for a duration of 7 days. I make sure i reach my destination in a diff route everyday for 5 days. The other 2? 1 day to stick to what i was told and 1 day for the results of failing to figure out a new route.

I enjoy lil surprises and curiosity in life like tt.

When im given 5 task, i can only focus on that 1 task tt interest me the most out of tt 5. it seems only normal tt the other 4 will auto blind themselves out from my vision. (yknow like when you play with DOF, only the subject is in focus, the rest remains in a blur)

"If u have too many commitments, & u spread ur energy across all of 'em, eventually u'll find it hard to achieve even just one."

- a quote from a friend in fb.

So trueeeeee. i always try to spread myself out evenly, but they always lead me to failures.

This, i would like to change and get rid of.

I like myself better when i am in my very own thinking mode. hate it when i start losing myself, becoming a marionette. i need a rope to tie myself, not to be manipulated by the others but to be controlled by myself and to hold myself together.

complex

2010-10-16T22:38:00.003+08:00

Next week is officially sch reopens. As i get older, my level of uncertainty just keeps on rising. I've a habit, of mulling over things wayyy ahead, i prefer to portray a situation negative, first. Somehow, i dont exactly feel prepared for all these, but ahh well maybe the feeling will come soon. yknow like sunday night?

Ever since 2 large candles started appearing on my cakes. I felt that my responsibilities are getting heavier than before, esp for myself. Many of the times, i let lose of myself. I strayed away from my beliefs. I lost my mind. I want to stop all these.

Its time to stay focus, but frankly speaking i am very distracted right now. I thought i've won the battle. I thought it's over, but no it came back, at the very wrong timing...

:(

2010-10-12T23:48:00.002+08:00

i hate it when i can't meet expectations...

怎么办~ 好亏疚啊.......

Curiosity (nearly) killed the cat

2010-10-09T19:44:00.008+08:00

Woke up in the morning, met up with germ to settle some paperwork over coffee. I handed my roll of films to the lab with a beam on my face, it's final..... yay

Headed to the salon aft tt to get a trim. The hairdresser keh kiang, wanted to guess my age, he told me i looked young, but his take was 25. What the eff.... twenty freaking FIVE? Perhaps all those late nights aged me by 5 TSK.

Went to the supermart for some groceries...

Headed back home to complete my last 2 a5 paintings, so mini so cute. i wish i can keep them for myself. :(

The paintings are left to dry, and i cooked the above for my bro+gf and myself. For experimenting and to express gratitude heh. Spanish rice +grilled chix w/ mush sauce. (too much mush at home!!) The brother's gf bought me a new hamster for my super belated bday gift~

Pongy died a week back.. i wasnt too sad then, but i just felt tt something was missing.. a lil empty. Now i;ve a new hamster, sometimes i forgot... i said pongy. The new hamster is not a replacement, it sldnt be. They're of the same breed, but they dont look the same. My mum thinks i am crazy, im just too attached to pongy. to be able to see the difference. Come to think of it 'Replacement' is such a sad term. Never be or take anything (worse anyone) as a replacement. Cos it's too sad... to be living a life under an overlaying shadow.

Okay okay~ It's time to do work now, and continue, aging... :(

sauteed mush with scramble eggs

2010-10-07T11:01:00.006+08:00

mmmm perfect breakfast~~ but... who ate my baguette!! ROARS.

Was talking to H last night, next dish i wanna try out..... spanish rice! (like super easy heh)

Just got a call from YI asking for my permission to sell my o lvl course work to raise fund (yes the 1 i've been complaining abt last few post.) i dont know if it's a good or bad thing... I wonder how much value does it still have. lol.....

要快乐很容意

2010-10-05T12:08:00.004+08:00

I like loggin into my mailbox seeing pleasant emails... They make my day! :D Lucky i came to starbucks to use their wireless.

Surprising at how some people work better @ quiet environment and vice versa. I quite like the noise ard here, places that are too quiet suffocates me. Maybe next time if i dont do design, i can be a barista hahahahaaha kiddingz! just a thought! :p

And so.... today i travelled so far to realized the store opens 1 hr later ZZZZ max. I stood outside like an idiot till checking the opening hours online struck me. It's another day of travelling ard, thank goddddd for concession~~~~~~~~~ But i wld rather be roaming ard outside than staying in studio sometimes.... it's too quiet in thr.... BRRRRR. Even itunes wont save me.

Shall chill here till my batt gets lowwwww~ &meanwhile think abt fyp. Hardworking leh~~

Updates: suayyyyy~ Imm aft i've submitted this post, i was summon back to wait for mr delivery. ZZZ can read my mind or what.... -.- Now i am back to this lil space........

忙忙忙

2010-10-04T21:13:00.009+08:00

Right now my mind will/ is only filled with work-work-work & earn money-earn money-earn more money and nth else. i dont have a life alr heh. Why would a client wanna meet at such unearthly hours?! Havent even got a time to catch a breather aft my day job. Damn, sldnt have given myself a birthday break, now i find it rly hard to catch up with work. :( 累死我了～～～～

One good news, I did my accounts ytd and yes uhhhh i've hit my first target! :D At first i didnt wanna say anything till i've achieve it. I am really grateful for people that have been giving me chances for freelance all! Fast moneyyy~ Weehee. As of now, overseas fundings cleared hehehe, 0 cents from family! Time to work hard to hit my second target!

Recently, found out tt our edusave was topped up agn. DAMNNN shld have gone to korea korea koreaaaaaaa with tt moneyyy (even tho the feedback + accompany wasnt gd, at all) But every time i view E's photostream, i cant help but to picture how beautiful a place koreaa is... with those niche cafes and beautiful landscape all... :( wasted. :/

Ahh aft sch reopens i wanna focus on school alr, second target's gonna be harddd to achieve. :/ 嗨呀赚钱心苦啊～～但我很开心嘻嘻 It's hard to find things i like to do + good $$, 满足感beats anythinggggg.

Time to get prepared~~

麻婆豆腐

2010-10-03T23:21:00.002+08:00

a lil too watery..... :P

i followed a jap recipe and it turn out to be tooooo sweet @ first zzz hence i end up adding more and more water + spicy sauce. The japs are always capable of turning (originally) spicy dishes sweet. (eg. curry?) But overall its a good attempt, experimental cooking whatz.

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Thanks for the wishes, card, cakes, prezzie, meal treats ppl, i am a happy fat girl. :D 爱死你们了～

习惯

2010-09-29T21:29:00.002+08:00

人，还是不要习惯来的好。。。因为习惯就会依赖依赖就会成性

嗨呀～ “习惯就好”

习惯不好！

rainy days

2010-09-27T23:22:00.001+08:00

Ambition without knowledge is like a boat on dry land

2010-09-26T22:26:00.006+08:00

I promise im nv gna trust crosspro anymore. i cant believe i actually experiment it on the final articulation. Now tell me how am i gg to shoot the same scenes back all over agn. i knew it when i kept having this revolting icky feeling inside me. trust instinct, trust my ass. OH THE HORROR. waste of time and money. This is what i call geh kiang number 1. As of now, im officially a sad kid. :(

Need to get a new sketchbook alr, i cldnt stand white stranded pieces of a4 lying ard anymore. They make good excuses for me not to start anything.

Updates: Funny how i was rambling ytd.. Just why didnt photoshop occur to me at tht moment. Germ if you're reading this, i am sorry thats the only way. :p me ishx sad kid no morez.

Just when i thought...

2010-09-25T23:53:00.005+08:00

i can forget abt my MF aft losing 2 bids consecutively. MAMIYAAAAA is out agn, wahhhhhhhh pek cek!!!!! hate it when lil things come out of nowhere to screw up my bigger plans. 妈妈说，我不能在买了。

工作又来啦～～我最进可是很努力的在赚钱喔也喜欢那种很忙的感觉嘻嘻！也很努力的在打中文反体字也太难了吧。因为。。。想和台弯人交谈，先磨好简体吧～

but it's damn hard to express emotions thru chinese, it is then i realised my chinese still need alot of brushing up! I want to be able to type like those sick chinese love songs whahaa~~

It's time like this...

2010-09-24T12:17:00.000+08:00

i wished i was in korea instead. damnit! >:/

Choices

2010-09-22T12:15:00.005+08:00

Is it really that, i dont know or i dont want to know? My mind doesnt give me an answer but my heart tells me the latter.

Cant take 'don't know' for an answer for too long, i need to do some serious planing alr. Things have been gg on too smoothly that now i faced a setback (right in my face), i've rly no idea how to comprehend. It's time you run back to home, kid.. roaming ard aimlessly aint your forte.

Out to run some errands, it's 吃蛇 time wahhahaa~~

100種生活

2010-09-19T13:54:00.004+08:00

Thats my neighbor's laundry wahaha like stalker much.

Sometimes sunday morning reminds me of the smell of detergent, i was standing infront of the windows in the yard looking at the neighbors opp and immersing myself in that wonderful smell. IMO scent is a rather strong element? i always find myself (subconsciously) drawn to ppl that smells good. Well yeah good smell is subjective... Thr was a period of time i rly like ppl that clothes smelt strongly like this fav detergent my mum stopped using. Also, i rly rly like the smell of ION. ahhhh sniff sniff~~

i let 5 pieces of a4 paper manipulate my mind

2010-09-17T20:37:00.005+08:00

Ever since the launch of fyp brief, i nv had a gd sleep @ night. Ponder worry ponder. Freed myself a lil by clicking "SEND" just now. Woahhh can finally get a good sleep tonight liaozzxxx (for now -.-)

I am not a fan of mooncakes. But i just had a bite on Home's fav's durian mooncake, liew the durian inside... too much! i doubt i can ever get tt aftertaste out of my mouth. brrrrrr i meant it in a gd way tho.

Side note, my brudder rlyyyy like the cookies and i think he's stealing some for his girl. mmm i sense an oven coming in. YES UHHHHHHH! :D Plot succeeded!

I AM GG TO SLEEP NAW, CALL ME ON THE PHONE & I'LL.... KILL.

nightxz xoxo

not your 'just-another-typical' tear-jerking film

2010-09-16T13:44:00.005+08:00

Leave Me from Daros Films on Vimeo.

This film def brings a new meaning to taking photos (to me), whats the point of taking all that useless objects when what you can take are those that are STILL around you living. That you foolishly/ ignorantly thought will be ard, forever. Im feeling it maybe cos im taking lesser and lesser photos of people, my family these days. Need to start taking some, just in case one day that scenario happen to me, i've photos to rewind to lol. to mend some things to break some things; relive those moments agn... (but i def hope tt day wldnt come duh -.-)

i feel... quite sad for the dad tho. somehow.

不听老人言，啦！

2010-09-15T22:20:00.005+08:00

I know i cannot mess with my stomach/ intestine (whatever they're a family) and i've to avoid some food, esp in the morn. KEH KIANG, went to provoke them this morning. Besttt got my retribution almost immediately, diarrhea until half gone, till almost late for work haha joke. (but i ended up early?! asdfghj) It's been a longggg while since i got diarrhea man. Quite a nice feeling, like all the toxins flush out in a day. I tot it was okay till climax is...... the tummy started to ache so badly when i was inside the train. We always see that in drama uh, but wait till you rly experience it... craziness. BUT HENG i mange to endureeee, another round in the mall, till almost 脱水 i swear zzz. now thats NOT nice. What a bad start for a day hur, lost my freaking damn appetite for the whole day. Lesson learnt: never to provoke things that are not your lvl... 真的...

whr's the screw??

2010-09-13T11:34:00.001+08:00

i always meet ppl that are abit.. not quite right in the mind.

i think i might have some affinity with tt community;

i meet them everywhr...

Maybe.. i AM one of them...

the sky is full of dreams but you don't know how to fly

2010-09-10T21:49:00.003+08:00

Some people.. they just do not deserve sympathy.

Why, do we keep giving chances, allowing them to hurt us time after time...

Ugly.. this whole routine is making me nauseous.

Treasure hunt

2010-09-09T22:55:00.011+08:00

yes as you can see from the title, i embarked on my journey on my lil treasure hunt, to hunt for dad's camera! I found something today! But it's another AUTO-slr, olympus somemore! Mum kept ensuring me that there are manual slrs! cos she rmb seeing them aft throwing out a dozen of expired films. (wtf? if only i knew abt expired films then arggh.) but i think tts just an excuse to make me do some spring cleaning. C can dig dig dig, dig 1 rollei, i dug like sai found ANOTHER auto lol. I guess my hunting needs to extend to granz hse alr. HIAK HIAK!

See that just shows, parental influence is something very impactful. What you do might influence your kids thinking/ actions in the future. That is why i always think my love for photography is somewht 'inherited' wahaha.

Also, my mum told me, i grew up.. wanting all the different things (from my peers/ kids of my age) She mention something that i recalled hehe that was me wanting a pair of socks for my bday! (i was pri 1 or 2 then?? NO, kindergarden!) Idk why but i wanted it so bad, nt bcos my friends have it, but just bcos i wanted it lol. yknow those white lacey long socks? But eventually i didnt get it despite me wishing for it for 3 yrs straight. i even hint them everytime we walk pass the shop and eventually to voicing out saying I WANT TT PAIR OF SOCKS! Still... didnt get it LOL. Perhaps, my parents tot that was a joke, cos kids of my age always wish for doll/ stationaries but sock?? what the... Still got more things lah, i always wanted the weirdest things, guess i was a tough kid to nurture then. :p

I was searching for some 'flashbacks' hence reading up my archives just now, very random i know. HAHA accidentally found my process of slowly forgetting the analogue and 'wanting' to eventually 'getting' my dslr, damn funny!! How i complaint why my mum wldnt sponsor me and how i slog so hard to get it fast JUST to annoy her (hehe). Determination is a scary thing, when i set my mind on something i rly get it. Also read tt, back then i was rly more open/ honest to this blog man, i wrote a lot of things i wldnt dare to right naw. brrrrr~ But i guess i'll nv get back to tt past, need to save my ass from some unwanted troubles you see..

that is also a reason why i removed my archive bar heh heh...

Hahahaha! my mum was sooooooo cute!! i sld start taking more pic of myself naw to amuse my kids in the future whhaahaha!

yummerz

2010-09-07T12:55:00.003+08:00

Holidays have come, it's experimental cooking time agn! Wanted to do pan fried salmon, but they dont look fresh today, glad that i've gotten the prawns instead~ My fav pasta style/sauce has got to be aglio olio, i like it with loads of basil! Simple and full of flavor but hard to manage:/, guess i still need more tries to achieve the desire standards.

Eating out is way cheaper than cooking for one -.- Fridge is overloaded with ingredients naw, guess i gotta live with pasta for the next few days haha. (ps i attempted Cabonara ytd, tt explains the excessive amt of pasta @ home.)

Whats next? I rly wanna try baking man. BUT no oven @ home kua kua kua~~

Balance

2010-09-05T01:51:00.006+08:00

I knew i wont be sleeping with tt excessive amt of coffee i had in the day. zzz. Cant seems to get myself occupied so here i am~

Finally ended this long and draggy shit, but happy thing is $$ is gonna roll in~~ Now waiting for d.m proj's prize money to roll in~ Gotta balance things up abit, to recover from the damage from buying the hybrid. :p

&today i was offered a chance, which the outcome i know i'll either rly hate it or rly love it. &then the conclusion is that ive decided to give it a miss. Reason is simple, cos i know im (can be) happy just doing things i love. Bcos of that i'll nv want to merge things i love to do with, work. (its okay if theres only some relations, but not solely!) Maybe i can call the things i love to do - hobbies. To me, hobbies are a form of escapism. They sld make me feel good, and i know i dont have any social responsibility, neither do i have to be a pro in it cos theres no pressure like work. I can be satisfied just being a amateur at it and no one can speaks a shit abt tt. I love to keep it that way, so that whenever i feel like the world is fucked up, i can always run to it's embrace.

That reminded me abt my O lvl art coursework, that 2m long canvas that took me 9 mths. Back then painting was 1 of my fav things to do. So when we were told to chose a medium to work with, rightfully i will choose painting. Cld have chosen papercut, clay, installations but i thought doing painting will at least spur me on abit. From street culture to erm punks to ermmm violence was the theme for it. Many many modifications to the initial idea. &then all of a sudden my fav things to do became a drag. I found myself reluctantly gg to the artroom to complete tt-behind-time piece of painting. Some of my friends get to dismiss themselves earlier cos they can bring home to do, but how the hell do i bring tt 2m long board home? Modifications and more modification, i know its for the better, but still... very effed up you jsut wanna get it over and done with. Cos the moment it drifted away from my ideal image, i lost my belief. It's time like this you start questioning/ having doubts about yourself and wondered if you're rly good/ have done a gd job at it. I swear this kind of thoughts haunt me alot. YES, aft tt 9mth, i nv touch painting agn for a very very long time. But thinking back i rly rly do miss the time thr, the accompany, having art camps, midnight lantern fest and all, it was all great but im glad it ended. Fortunately, fav things are still fav things, i still paint (for leisure) minus that fear.

Yup so that just shows, maybe im still not mature enough, but i doubt i can ever mix work and hobbies tgt. Unless i am capable of balancing them.

The future scares me alot. If most of you didnt realise, our chats are always revolving ard / ended with "what are your future plans?" Felt like i've lived 2 decades of my life achieving nothing great, dont want to be just a jack of all trades. I want to be a master at something too, which i havent found it yet.

That sure is a long storyyyyy wahaha i tot blogs sld be meant to share about myself, cos i read up the few previous post and realised im always posting unhappy stuff. :p Maybe blogs are a form of escapism too. gah wasted almost an hour on this and i still cant sleep. -.-

I failed to control my emotions well again

2010-08-31T22:05:00.002+08:00

"We cease to be so angry, once we cease to be so hopeful."

Guess i've been feeling a lil too hopeful lately.

Thoughts no.2

2010-08-30T22:31:00.002+08:00

Like a fridge that is overloaded with groceries, food that are soon going bad are meant to be thrown out, not to be compromised by constantly changing today's menu. It becomes a race, it's a never ending cycle bcos new groceries will keep coming in. Eat only the freshest, given the chance.

Or, nv over-buy and store excess, even better.

SELLING POSTTTTTT

2010-08-25T22:09:00.005+08:00

Photo credits: superheadz japan

Haihai, i am selling my digital harinezumi 2, as you can see it's just TWO, not ONE, not the new TWO (++) you see on superheadz web.

Shiny black version.

Condition: i dare say 9.5. It's almost new, (bought @ jan 2010) i kept it along with my card reader in a pretty pretty rose print bag. Protection sticker is still intact. Nothing's wrong, working fine, not spoilt. Just under utilize.

Reasons for selling: As mentioned above, under utilized. Money cld have gone to better investment. + I am too caught up with my other cameras to take a 2nd glance at this baby.

But i do have to admit i was once very in love with it, it's in my bag almost everywhere i go, overseas too.

Price: Quote me yaw. (fyi: i bought it @ 260SGD) No lowballers plzzzzzzz, im not desperate to sell it off, if the price is not okay i wld rather keep it by my side. For display purpose rather than selling it off dirt cheap. :D Only for serious buyer who can appreciates.

Interested buyers, MSN/ EMAIL me.

Well if you dont know me personally, leave your contact @ my tagboard thankzzz.

Below are some photos taken by me. As you can see, this toy is capable of producing surreal + dream like + blur lo-fi photos.

And below are promotional videos taken by superheadz. Meanwhile enjoy~

something in my heart just died.

2010-08-23T20:29:00.009+08:00

After all that stupid weird redial calls, i guess many have alr heard abt my 'supernatural' encounter. (hahaha!) Well well well to me it'll still be the cause of a faulty house phone cos i dont like the idea of scaring myself, so i chose not to believe. Me and mumsie laughed over it.

Just right on the seventh mth summore.

Then suddenly i got reminded by a thing called death, okay maybe departure seems to be a better word. People walk in and out of your lives. What's saddening isnt the ritual of sending off itself, but the aftermath, that emotional torment the ones living have to deal with. In the beginning every single thing associates and reminds you of the loss. It hurts cos they still live in your heart. But honestly as time passes, whats left? Nth is more torturing than, forgetting. I started thinking...

It's just sad, too sad, that what seemingly impt to me then were now just vague memories buried at the back of my mind.

As much as i want to still rmb, i cldnt.

I cldnt rmb that voice.

that feature of yours and that expression that warms my heart...

It's all a blur, but why is it so? :(

(ahh & i know how contradicting this is, cos my post below is titled :happy kid -.-)

Happy kid

2010-08-22T17:19:00.004+08:00

After soooooo much thoughts, I got the hybrid today! Whats more? it's compatible with my coloursplash flash (just when i was thinking of selling it off) Heeeeheeeeheeeeheee. *beams*

Well i pay for all my own stuff, so naw it's time for me to work my ass off.

i can predict

2010-08-20T23:49:00.002+08:00

&I foresee alot of photo editing shitz coming...

ahhh cant wait for the sunday screening to come. me needs to go chillzzzz.

All i wanna do naw is... to do a painting (man am i getting rusty at tt), change pongy's bedding, clear tt proj mess i made in the living room, change my room's layout, sell my junks, pick some twigs, finish all sch assignments and trim some fatz.

in need of some sleep. been lacking of sleep, staying up doing nth. ahh this is bad...

we're all tired...

2010-08-13T23:06:00.003+08:00

Isn't it scary? that sometimes we convince ourselves to get a mental break, but eventually we never wanna wake up from it agn?

I cant explain this but whenever i am alone and thinking, fear strikes.

Fear - like a muscle feasting disease. Devouring by the bits, till whats left behind is nth but the lingering presence within that emptiness. As i grow, some parts are being devoured, somewhere, slowly; it's terrifying just to know that i dont know how to deal with this cycle anymore.

The real world- time to step out of the comfort zone.

mindset

2010-08-11T11:30:00.002+08:00

"Whenever anyone falls at your side or behind you, cry out: 'Fortune, you will not deceive me, you will not fall upon me confident and heedless. I know what you are planning. It is true that you struck someone else, but you aimed at me.' "

-Seneca

Original text:

Quotiens aliquis ad latus aut pone tergum ceciderit, exclama: 'Non decipies me, fortuna, nec securum aut neglegentum opprimes. Scio quid pares; alium quidem percussisti, sed me petisti.'

Wise words. human minds are indeed a work of art. I really need a change of mindset to get me out of this whole freaking cycle that i never seems to escape from.

今日不同往日。

2010-08-09T19:44:00.003+08:00

妈妈说：whoa 你也该是时后认真减肥了吧～

Me : “。。。”

妈：如过减到 xx kg 我给你钱。;) wink!

Me : “okok try my best。。”

妈：。。。有钱你可以出国喔，也可以买像机嘞～～

Me ： “！！！”

说得容意。。啊金钱的诱惑。。。

不！因该说是有奖利才会有进步哈哈哈哈（心虚。。。）

when anxiety has yet to kick in..

2010-08-05T21:06:00.004+08:00

i've landed myself in some deep shit.

Anyhoo, Im gg to the japanese film festival, anyone?

lights

2010-08-04T22:12:00.003+08:00

Aftnoon class was cancelled today, had a long napppp soon aft i reached home. Some phone call disturbed my serenity, i cant rmb in details, but i think i shot this and imm went back to sleep heh!

Am very inspired to take photos agn. I wanna go travelling! &before that i'll get my camera first. Someone gimme some jobs leh~

(i'll be more than grateful!) :D

fly fly fly

2010-08-03T23:10:00.002+08:00

It's been quite sometime since i brought the bbf out for a walk, the poor plastic is covered with dusttt alr. rly running out of interesting things to shoot these days... honestly, i still cant rly handle this toy, properly. Sibei hard to compose sian. :/

Lab test 2 tmr oh my....

Embarking on the bak kut teh journey

2010-08-02T22:01:00.003+08:00

Satisfied kids. :D

random

2010-07-29T22:50:00.002+08:00

Interim crit ended today, but it's not the end end. :/ More mind screwing sessions to come... to improve on what i thought is final alr. aaahh dont wanna think about it naw. cant imagine having to cut aluminum sheets for another week, plus i just return the necessary tools to the workshop today.

Super tempted to get this new book for the past few weeks, holding back cos i haven finish the one im reading naw :( i've this love-hate relationship with books that are hard to digest, as much as i know i'll take a damn long time to finish it (cos i re read chaps alot, till i understand), but i think those are the books that enlighten me the most. so, sld i?

Lately, alot of cats been appearing ard my area, ahhh i want a cat. really.

i want tomyum too.

soooo manny cats in the neighbourhoodz

2010-07-28T23:44:00.000+08:00

sneak

2010-07-27T14:15:00.001+08:00

Distractions

2010-07-25T14:40:00.003+08:00

Nowadays, i really dont see the point of going online. It's great to be disconnected from the world sometimes...

feeling like sunset..

2010-07-19T21:42:00.003+08:00

"to put yourself in other people's shoes"

Rrrrreally man.. just some things you gotta really experience yourself before making any assumptions. I truly understood it today. Major MF session in the wkshop, felt like pulling every single strand of my hair off my scalp. ahh i wished i got more knowledge on all these softwares.

one more thing,

ignorance is bliss/ act blur live longer

i freed myself from some misery, just by applying it correctly.. :)

burden... off my back man!

A working brain cannot generate in a constraint space

2010-07-17T22:27:00.002+08:00

the room.

idk since when i've decided to stop working on it. Left are the painting tools all dried up, un-arranged books and unwanted objects with loose memories attached.

Theres so much i cannot bear to part with.

A lot of things have been running through my mind. Each taking up a lil of that space in my brain. Ahhh very suffocating...

tik tok

2010-07-12T02:06:00.001+08:00

Almost there..............

Just another saturday...

2010-07-10T21:04:00.001+08:00

think think think

hai-yo

2010-07-09T23:07:00.002+08:00

I've been looking high and low for sth like this..

2010-07-04T23:23:00.002+08:00

Im pretty anal about how the display looks like hence, cant seems to find the ideal one...

Highly anticipated

2010-07-01T21:58:00.004+08:00

One of my fav fav, Murakami's Norwegian wood is gna be adapted into film!! mmm very anticipating... Even more when i caught a glimpse of the still sneaks, mad love grainy kind of old sch film hehehehe. Love rinko kikuchi but didnt think tt kenichi guy fits the role, hes abit too overrated, yknow 'L'?? zzz but well, just my 2cents worth~

Dont even know if the film will ever get into sg.. :( But it's gna be marked on my calendar for sure!

First day of school

2010-06-28T18:53:00.003+08:00

Didnt know it wld be such a dragggggggggggggg. Hours of presentations.

Its not the end.

Think my brain auto blocked access to any excessive informations naw. Cannot absorb.

&&Karen got herself a better (in fact, great!) deal in IT show for her macbkpro!! damn i feel so cheated!

Grumpy kid is me. bye.

hair issues

2010-06-26T23:31:00.003+08:00

Today i visited the hair salon, my hairdresser asked "SO when do you intend to cut your hair?"

i nearly cut it on impulse, just bcos of what she said.

But yeah it's been so long... i think it time to loosen some weight on those tresses.

meh.

2010-06-20T14:01:00.002+08:00

Theres sth very whimsical about a kaleidoscope that i like. Got this 1 in china that is made out of a glass ball instead of the usual one with colorful bit/crystals inside. I can spend a long time rotating it, adding diff objects. Being very fascinated each time, just like a baby... hahaahaha

Life pretty much changes aft i am back, i dont rly talk at home anymore. ahh maybe im just too busy for now. But i rly think thrs sth abt living alone (by which i mean away from my fam) tt i quite like, i dont need to answer to anyone, i do whatever i like, i make the decisions, i learnt to manage my money, i get stressed up over managements, most importantly i learnt to be even more independent and im in control.

I used to think im alr an independent kid, till staying in a hostel did i realised im actually still very reliant to.. alot of things. 1 of it is washing of clothes man, i swear it gets so tiring and mundane as it gets towards the last few weeks of the trip. Having a washing machine and a mum is such a blessing rly. &then i recall times when i go groceries shopping, i buy whatever i want. Not till in china i've to differentiate what are the wants and needs, eventho things are darn cheap thr lah. Thruout my stay, i dont miss home (oddly) BUT im glad to be home. Its a mixed feeling ahaha oh wellz...

Feel like changing my layout, to something even more neater and plain. But i just realised i've forgotten everything abt my html, nt tt i know alot but i think i've lost touch even to all the basics. Hahahaha sucks to be me. Tts why i make it a point to keep doing things i like/know, cos im too forgetful for my age. Am thinking of picking up jap classes agn (this time serious!!) ahaha, i know i've always been talking abt it. Looking at the new timetable next term, only 3 days a week! I sld rly make ful use of tt. But i think i might need to start all over agn (stupid policy), anyone wants to join me? :D come come!!

chill pillz mode

2010-06-13T01:19:00.002+08:00

Hi! If you dont alr realize, I am back! :D

Tomorrow...

2010-04-17T15:27:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow, i'll be at somewhere foreign. Where accessing fb/blogger/msn might be prob. Excited to gain new experiences at somewhere new but yet at the same time feeling sucky having to leave my comfort zone/ my fam & friends.

Internship officially ended ytd with a farewell dinner wahaa. Overall, it was so fun all these while it didnt felt like work at all. But it was also after internship, i got to know tt i've still so much to learn. Time to buck up and get serious for the last year in dxpd~

Wont be updating this space for quite sometime, hopefully be back with loadddds of pictures! meow!

i quite like the taste of phlegm~ HAH!!

2010-03-28T22:45:00.002+08:00

HAH! now i've them in a variation of S M L.

Coughing my lungs out now. I've no idea why the more i was told not to eat chicken (cos apparently, they worsen your cough?) the moreeeeeee i wanna eat them! Chicken for lunch + dinner. But is tt even scientifically proven? Plus a lot of corn snacks and some odd nuts i DONT usually eat (i start to like them naw), all the forbidden food. Anticipating another sleepless night soon...

Bottles of memories

2010-03-21T23:13:00.006+08:00

Can you believe it, it's my parent's wedding invitation which i placed inside the glass bottle on the left. Mum kind of found it in granny's hse and brought it back today. :D

Gna fill up all these bottles 1 by 1...

2010-03-14T20:11:00.001+08:00

Suddenly, last summer from Leonardo Dalessandri on Vimeo.

Whr will this journey takes me to?

2010-03-14T14:07:00.005+08:00

Ytd a group of scouts came knocking at my doors, thr were girls as well?! (apparently their brownies platoon had to close down due to poor participation, naw the girls have to wear pants! sad max.) I didnt have anything for them to do. But the next min i knew they were in my neighbour's hse. Being the usual kpo i am, i stood by the door to eavesdrop. &to my horrorazzz, the neighbour made the approx. 5? primary 2 kids wash their toiletz. NICE, i bet some of the kids now dont even wash their own toilets at home. HAHAHA. Maybe all schools sld make joining scouts/brownies a compulsory so thr will be less yknow, breeding of spoilt bratz.

Do you rmb? how the brownies like to con our parent's money with the metal tin box filled with timtams. which all along i tot was hand-made?

Was throwing out junks that are not needed anymore from my room and HAA guess wht? found that new H. murakami book i bought from christmas sale's @ kino '09. Been looking high 'n low for it forgetful shitz.

Oh and did i mention? i revived my superrrr old skool sony P&S? The thought didnt strike me till recently bro decides to go phuket with his friends, (came back all dark btw) and needed a camera. Being able to revive it is like a... like a miracle haha. I browsed thru the remaining photos inside that 256mb memory card (i wonder how i survived with 256 MB space last time!?!) feeling a bit embarrassed yet funny being reminded of all the memories. p/s. he didnt bring the cam along eventually. -.-

Lately been questioned with some questions that i didnt know how to answer, anymore. It's time to sit down and rly think. What happened to tt beautiful imagery i've used to aim for? Is it not time yet or do i just not have what it takes? hmmm i cant visualize the end anymore. i dont like unrealistic thoughts and talks that i cant accomplish. But well~ 1 thing i know for sure is, i am still interested, the flame is still burning. &who knows, 1 day tt flame could turn into a potential forest fire. ;) just right now... im a bit confused. need some time!

Nursery

2010-03-12T22:05:00.002+08:00

Niceee place, but i didnt have my harinezumi with me, only a photo with shitty iphone cam. :/

ITP dominated my life.

2010-03-09T01:08:00.001+08:00

On a sidenote, i quite like the smell of haze. Sniffsniff.

Been busy...

2010-02-26T01:05:00.002+08:00

Making fulllll use of the time before itp starts!

Feb have got to be the broke-est mth of mine. Bought some furnitures/ accessories for revamp and post retail-therapy for retail space project. all sucked me dry.

I lugged the 35 kg worth of racks and accessories back home all by myself, hoping to save the charges from delivery. Took a cab home on a peak hour from town area and was charged 40 over dollars. wtffffff hahah tt was the mosttttt expensive cab ride EVER. (btw the delivery charge was only 30 bucks... -.-)

say bye bye to planned trips.

And maybe i was just getting more and more stupid. There was once im rushing to and fro cityhall mrt to marina sq to meet some diff ppl. I got so sick of walking pass the same route so many times that i decided to get to the train station from another route - via esplanade. (frm marina sq) It was soooo much longer lah, idk why i kept thinking it cld be shorter. Lucky for the exhibitions ard that made the walk not so miserable. But note - i needed to RUSH, never have i felt so eff up walking out of tt automatic door to see OUB again. to know that i cld have actually got thr with half the time i used to walk the new route.

Dumb much.

& some same old tough luck with the ufo catcher. i rly wanted the sweets series lah someone import from japan plssssssssssssss.

Bad bad year. NOT LIKE I WANNA BE SUPERSTITIOUS (i nv was), BUT SUPER TRUE THAT ALL THE BAD SHIT BEFALLS ME AFT CNY!

hooray!

2010-02-20T20:17:00.004+08:00

Finally an end to all the red and white. i swear space proj was x 3 worse than delmonte. -.- Bet everyone had a superrrr good sleep ytd hehe. Drained both mentally and physically. All the money spent could have gone to better places man. zzzzz

Oddly, now that i've no projects to rush for, i feel pretty aimless & blank.

In a weeks time, it will be itp. And aft itp, it'll be china. omgz how time flies geez.

新年快到啦～

2010-02-06T14:02:00.001+08:00

没 feel 啊~~!

30 mins of cheap thrill :D

2010-01-29T10:08:00.000+08:00

welcome to my dreamscape

2010-01-24T22:40:00.003+08:00

I dreamt of loads of weird things recently, and they felt damn real. Idk how to say, they're like... like premonitions. brrrr~

im eating a pack of chips naw. Took a closer look and i saw sugar, sparkling sugar bitz. idk abt the rest, but i really hate food with salty-sweet combi! -.-

The disadvantage with long hair: they always get burnt when i am cooking. w/o me knowing that is. The burnt ends curled, all dried up...disgusting.

Money saving plans have been failing real badly. I guess the coming project will cause even more damage.... ahh what a bleak future ahead~

Mad loveeee this advert!

2010-01-21T14:46:00.002+08:00

Iconiq x Atsushi

(L) EXILE

(L) the excessive amount of faux diamonds used.

Behind your fridge

2010-01-20T00:15:00.003+08:00

I sat there, listening to people talking about unfulfilled dreams. Made me think a lot. :/

Have been doing lots of serious planning lately. On a lot of things. &Bcos theres a high possibility of me screwing things up at the very last phase, gna take things slow 1 step at a time. &hopefully my passion doesnt die out before i even achieve something hehehehe.

I wanna go to places that i can take nice pictures.

Recent boomz: Harinezumi. After much considerations (like 5 mths? even ver. 2 was out alr by then), yeah almost half a year of stalking. I decided that i've to own one myself. Just hope i didnt regret it, like how i regret with the bbf. :/ I even thought of selling it away, but but it's too cute lah~ So the fate of the bbf is to be an ornament on the shelves till i've thought of ways to fully utilize it, agn. Maybe i sld start doing rental services, starting renting all my cameras and earn some ka-ching out of it.

Time to start mastering imovie!

*Just in case you wonder why i am kinda active here recently, it's bcos new proj brief JUST started only. The word is JUST. Last project of the yearrrrrr woohoo~ ;D